Awakening...eye's wide open...wisdom. Oh boy and awakening is where I am right now. It is time to celebrate...my work has been selling!! How awesome is that! I freeze - stop - self sabotage. Sure there have been other circumstances this past two weeks. Life. As I struggle to remain in the positive. That happy place....I wonder if there will ever be an end. The pain, it's physical. The lack of energy, lack of engaging in life. This too shall pass.
Then I realize that as in the past, I am sabotaging myself. Success is here for my taking. Excitement, growth, the positive, encouraging and out going me I use to be. Oh no! I must stop. Not any more! I have been exposed and sabotage must return home and not visit again. I noticed this recently when a customer purchased three of my pieces. It was like I held my breath until she received the art and liked it. My husband asked why I would do that when I have never had an issue of anyone not liking my work. I don't know the answer but I do know that I love the happy, positive and confident me. She is here. I remember her. This illness is not an excuse to let that person go. Say good-bye to sabotage. I've sent her home.